Showing posts with label alcoholism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label alcoholism. Show all posts

Thursday, January 22

Foster

 









Foster by Claire Keegan is a compact book, sharp like a punch to the gut, about children's lack of control in this world and a summer of lessons about letting actions speak louder than words. 

Set in Ireland, a girl leaves home for the summer to live with an aunt and uncle who lost their only child. That home stands in stark contrast to the only home she knows, run by an alcoholic father and ever-pregnant mother with a brood of children they can ill afford. The child is open about the family’s money problems, and Mrs. Kinsella asks if her mother would be offended by the couple sending off a few bob. “She wouldn’t, but Da would,” the girl replies.  

Edna Kinsella clearly dislikes her sister’s husband, Dan, blaming him for the family’s impoverishment and slovenly ways. But John Kinsella is a peacemaker. His goal is to get along with the child and he understands that requires the father’s agreement. 

The contrast between the two homes is unnerving, and the child observes, “I am in a spot where I can never be  what I always am nor turn into what I could be.”

She finds the new home strange, as life with the Kinsellas is a balance, with new freedoms and responsibilities. But regarded as an individual whose opinion matters, the child quickly comes to appreciate the Kinsellas, who have no trouble extending love beyond the boundaries of close family. She immediately observes the mutual respect and trust the childless couple have for each other. John Kinsella respects his wife, and explains that women have a gift for detecting eventualities. “A good woman can look far down the line and smell what’s coming before a man even gets a sniff of it.” 

Of course, accidents happen, and the couple is calm and forgiving. Kinsella turns ordinary tasks, like collecting the mail, into little games. Life is orderly, comfortable despite unspoken grief over the son who died. 

The couple feels guilt over the loss of the son, who died chasing the family dog into a slurry, and Edna Kinsella wonders how her sister could have parted with her daughter, trusting care with another, especially a woman who lost her son. 

With love comes the fear and pain of loss. The Kinsellas and the girl understand their time together is fleeting, unlikely to be replicated by the child's own parents. 

One night, John takes his nieces on a walk by the sea under a brilliant moon. “Kinsella takes my hand in his. As soon as he takes it, I realize my father has never once held my hand, and some part of me wants Kinsella to let me go so I won’t have to feel this. It’s a hard feeling but as we walk along I begin to settle in an let the difference between my life at home and the one I have her be.”

People long to trust others, but there is only one way to find out. The girl spends a short time with a neighbor of the Kinsellas, and the woman simultaneously spews gossip about the couple's dead son while pecking for more. Kinsella explains his wife “wants to find the good in others, and sometimes her way of finding that is to trust them, hoping she’ll not be disappointed, but sometimes she is.” 

The man then advises the girl to limit what she tells others. "You don’t ever have to say anything…. Many a man’s lost much just because he missed a perfect opportunity to say nothing.” 

Over a few short weeks, the girl learns much about generosity, patience and the ability to keep a confidence.

Through most of the book, the girl remains nameless although John Kinsella once refers to her as Petal, a name that may be a real name or not, as ephemeral and sweet as a loving closeness that spans one short summer. 


Friday, February 9

Invisible

 

Two women, an actress and a film director, make a pact to keep a secret about a brutal sexual assault from years earlier in Hollywood. Val recognized one man, a studio CEO, but not the other. The arrest of the CEO more than 25 years later in Invisible Woman, a page turner by Katia Lief, triggers pain for the victims and panic for the unnamed rapist.

The secret goes undiscussed by the two women and erodes the friendship. “Val wanted to forget what had happened, so they avoided talking about it. It was like trying to dance around an open pit – nearly impossible. Eventually the calls stopped.” 

Joni, an occasional screenwriter who abandoned her directing career, is trapped in an unpleasant marriage masked by an oversized and gawdy home. She drinks to vanquish unhappy memories. Val, more content, teaches school. “They’d started off in the same place, young and hungry, but only Joni had gone on to a degree of real success and … what? Not fame – it was her husband who was famous now. Riches maybe.” Val’s memories are more vivid than Joni's, wonders how Joni could possibly be happy. 

News of the arrest prompts Joni to reflect on her past and recognize her life is a mess, “the gluey sensation of having lost track of Val and time and herself, of having become invisible.” Family photos once signaled a full life, but then Joni noticed that “somewhere along the line, the grin and bear it smile worn by the women of her mother’s generation had found its way onto her face.” She considers reaching out to Val and offering support, but is uncertain: “Of not knowing how far she should go to find her old friend – or if she should leave her alone in what she hoped (but doubted was a comfortable obscurity.”   

Joni finds Val on Facebook and the two women arrange a meeting at a restaurant near Joni’s Brooklyn home. But Val is viciously attacked beforehand, sent to the hospital in a coma. Waiting, Joni drinks herself into an angry, vulnerable stupor and is later retrieved by her controlling husband who pays the housekeeper and dog walker to keep tabs on his unstable wife. 

Continuing to drink, Joni rashly breaks free from a miserable marriage. The price is another secret, another mean memory, the loss of career, family and perhaps her self-delusion. Joni only becomes more invisible.